People used to say 'What you don't know, can't harm you.' What they didn't know was that they were wrong... and they did themselves a lot of harm in attempting to lead their lives by this maxim! Ignorance is not bliss, it is just trouble waiting to happen. Knowledge, on the other hand, is power. You may not like knowing all that you now know, but the fact that you know it is extremely encouraging. It means you are in a position to make a very wise choice as you enter what looks set to be a surprisingly positive  moment. You may or may not feel pleased about what you're learning but you can only benefit in the long run from all you find out during this exceptional period. And isn't this the right time for identifying things that need to change and resolving to do whatever it takes to make those changes occur? Keep looking and you'll find a way to move forward that need not be a problem to anyone.