They say that, 'you become like the company you keep'. Let us hope they are not right. It seems very much to you as if you are now keeping a certain person's company - as part of a deliberate attempt to remind yourself of what it is you never want to turn into. Perhaps you vaguely figure, somewhere deep down inside, that as long as they keep having all those faults and failings, you won't be obliged to have any for yourself. Be warned. This other individual is less imperfect than you perhaps might like to imagine!Some factor in your emotional life, is now making you feel both excited and nervous. You are finding it hard to think about anything other than this burning issue. This is not too surprising considering the way that it has been smouldering away for so long. I can't realistically advise you not to give your concern any more attention, but I must urge you not to act with too much haste. No matter what suddenly changes, or how much pressure you encounter, time is on your side. Nothing has to happen in too much of a hurry.