Don't look at where you have been. Never mind where you are going. Where are you right now? Look at your circumstances in isolation. Forget what led you to them or where you would like them to lead you to. Now, either you are somewhere that is entirely untenable without an explanation, a justification or even an aspiration... or you are somewhere that's just fine, just as it is. If it's the latter, why go any further? If it's the former, why stay any longer? As you become clear and decisive, many problems will fade away.