You are in danger of allowing a desire to become a yearning, a fear to become a terror, a concern to become an obsession. In so far as this is motivating you to get up out of your psychological armchair and start actively pursuing a vital goal, this is not entirely a bad thing. But you must take care not to lose your sense of perspective. You need to be sure that you know what you're doing and where you are going. And you don't... yet. But you will... soon. Hold on tight to your sense of humour you have an unhealthy situation to sort out. Your instinct is to tackle it head on. Your best bet is to be sparing with your time and energy